| Same Shit Different Day |
[Jun. 9th, 2005|01:25 am] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
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| | Dream Theater - Panic Attack | ] |
Things where good, but now... not so much. Right now I kinda wake up with the hope that this day could be my day to die. But that wont happen... I'm meant to live a long torturous life alone.
Extremely depressing I know, for that I apologize. |
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| I love finding songs that match your thoughts |
[May. 31st, 2005|01:46 am] |
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| |  pensive | ] |
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| | Killswitch Engage - The End of Heartache | ] |
Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting
This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory
For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart |
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| What a ride |
[May. 27th, 2005|01:24 am] |
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| |  satisfied | ] |
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| | John Petrucci - Animate Inanimate | ] |
So an update is in order... Umm on Friday the 13th my band Failed Creation played a show at this spanish cafe on south broadway. Once again, we kicked ass. At first the people started to yell at us because the DJ's stopped playing music as we where still setting up our gear. They started chanting fagot in spanish... but that all stopped as soon as we started. Halfway though the intro to our first song, about 1 min, there was a pit. It continued throughout our 1 hour set and might I say it was the most fun I had in a while. We should be playing tomorrow night at Sal's Restaraunt, right where neperhan and yonkers meet, and then again at a tattoo convention in Queens. Also, I got my dream amp just the other day... the Mesa Boogie Road King. It sounds amazing and I cant wait till I get enough money to be a Mesa Boogie speaker cabinet cause it will sound so much tighter.
Also finished up school. Thats right I am officially an Electrical Engineer with a BS. I even got Magna Cum Laude status. Included with graduating was senior week. From my last test on tues. night to sat. night I was some kinda of fucked up. Tues. fellow classmates had a party at their dorm, Wends was the booze cruz (open bar), Thurs. was the clam bake(all u can drink beer), fri. was the senior formal (open bar), sat was last night(3 beers but went drinking afterwords), and the ceremony was on sunday. It was a great fucken time is all I can say, definitely worth the 4 years of work to get there.
Oh and for the formal I had the sexiest date, my good friend Krispy. We got drunk, road the elevators in the mariot marquis(where the formal was held) up and down, and pretty much just chilled and made comments about the funny stuff people where doing. I was such a great time. Then, on the way home she started falling asleep so i offered her my shoulder. It definitely was nice to have her in my arms like that. I kinda always had a thing for her but due to the friendship couldn't do anything about it. I think I might actually try though, see if things could work out. If not best friends is pretty damn good too, so I cant complain.
I think thats it... just going through alcohol with-drawl still. Wish me luck on finding a job and with Krispy. |
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| Best Friends Forever- RIP |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|12:51 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | Dream Theater - Spirit Carries On | ] |
I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend
I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try
If I die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear" |
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| Battle of the Bands |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|02:33 am] |
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Wensday night at 9 O'clock in Smith Auditorium at Manhattan College my band Failed Creation, once known as Choke Hold, will be performing. If all goes as well we should kick some serious ass. Practices have went we, we have the songs down tight... i have a solo I hopefully will not fuck up. Just gotta make it through a test and some more classes. O well |
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| Battle of the Bands |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|01:08 am] |
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| | Working on my solo for instrumental | ] |
So yesterday was the auditions for Manhattan College's Battle of the bands, and even though we where the hardest and most diverse band auditioning we fucking made it. So on march 23rd at 9:00 we will being kicking my colleges ass yet again. If nothing else it will be a hell of a lot of fun, the auditions where. Oh and since Choke Hold was already taken by some other bands we where looking into changin our name to Failed Creation. Not definate yet though.
After the auditions we went to UNO's got some good food, when it was fully cooked, and then hopped down into the city for some alcoholic bliss. The hooka bar we wanted to go to had a dress code that not all of us met so we had to go to somewhere else. Wound up at a pub and then a ale house on St. Mark's. I got drunk, it was fun. |
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| You know its cold when.... |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|12:26 am] |
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| | Tomahawk - PoP | ] |
... the fucken Hudson river starts to freeze over. I was down at the Marina with furbs twice today and its kinda cool watching the little icebergs in the river float around. Now it is almost frozen all the way across.
James lent me his 7-sting guitar. Im getting used to it and enjoying playing one... I think I need to buy one, perhaps a music man, perhaps the petrucci model, perhaps witht the pieze pickups in it too. I also need to be a new half stack. Mesa Boogie please. O man sounds so good.
Everything is dandy, that or I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. Thats it... |
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| Road Trip |
[Jan. 14th, 2005|12:45 am] |
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| | blah | ] |
Today went with James and Furbs up to Boston so James could sign in to school. Lots of driving and smoking, very fun. Ohhh and the cafe where we ate again... great egg sandwich. Oh the fog made it kinda cool to drive i couldn;t see much but it had a cool effect.
Last night I had a weird ass dream, at one point there was a girl sitting next to me and the way my arm was it was starting to hurt and I told her about it... then when i woke up my arm hurt cause of the way i was sleeping. Its kinda weird how that happens. Kinda suck that I woke up when i did... other then my arm was hurting.
O the band is going good, working on some new songs... everyone likes the solos ive been doing for the instrumental. They also all liked the song im writing so far, i should finish that up so we can play it. I wana a Mesa Boogie head now..... the dual rectifier sounds so good.... I still wanna try the Road King.
The only bad news... kinda lonely. |
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| All Good |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|11:19 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
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| | Opeth - Hope Leaves | ] |
One more semester of colege left, then i have to figure out what to do. It was a good semester. Christmas was nice, got waisted last night. Nothing like chilling with my buddies. Heres a new song:
In the corner beside my window
There hangs a lonely photograph
There is no reason
I'd never notice
A memory that could hold me back
There is a wound that's always bleeding
There is a road I'm always walking
And I know you'll never return to this place
Gone through days without talking
There is a comfort in silence
So used to losing all ambition
Struggling to maintain what's left
Once undone, there is only smoke
Burning in my eyes to blind
To cover up what really happened
Force the darkness unto me |
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| Constant |
[Nov. 9th, 2004|07:22 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
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| | Passive - A Perfect Circle | ] |
This is going to be another rant, so if you don't wanna read someone bitching, don't read this.
The other night I was chillen with Furby, by chilling I mean smoking and drinking, and we where talking about people and other B.S. thats gone on recently. We realized something... there is this phenomenon we noticed with certain people. They only contact us or want to hang out with us when a)it's convenient for them or b) there is a problem in their life. For some reason they feel that the only way they can talk to us is if they have a problem. We are only really there to make them feel better about themselves. What the hell is this about? We got problems too, we need to vent, but when we try to find them when we have problems they vanished.
Both of us recently have known people who are there for like a week or two, always calling or talking to us in some way and wanting to hang, but then poof they vanish for weeks or months on end. Then they start the contact back up with us out of the blue, and when we get to talking with them its obvious that something went wrong in their lives, and then it dawns on us... thats why they started the contact back up. When they are happy and everything is good they could care less, but when things go bad we are either the first ones they turn to or we're their last resort, not sure which one though.
All I gotta say is that people, if they are friends or not, should be a constant... either constantly there or constantly not, none of this back and forth shit. One reason is it fucks with our heads. Are you a friend or not? Do you like hangin out with me or am I just your last resort? What ever the deal is me and Furbs always fall for it and are there for that person, but its gotta stop.
To all the friends who are there all the time, thanks you guys kick ass... lets drink and smoke and get fucked up in every way. |
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| Hmmm... What the Fuck? |
[Nov. 7th, 2004|01:08 am] |
Only one word can describe tonight... week!!!
Don't play games with my head... it might fall off. |
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| Kick ass |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|10:46 pm] |
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So yea, Holloween played a gig... it was at Sal's resturant on neperhan. We where the headliners, if you wanna call it that. Unknown, who we played with the first gig, opened. Then Kronically Inkorect played, they where a standard mosh pit metal. After the show we where talking with them and supposedly, right after the singer went in the army or something like that, they got a call to do Ozzfest. Thats pretty big, and they opened for us. They also said that we wher pretty damn good and could definatly make it. So yea to all those who decided not to come see us, you suck cause we kicked ass. |
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| Yea one of these... |
[Sep. 26th, 2004|01:21 am] |
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I've come to realize that if I don't call anyone or try to get in contact with anyone... no one would ever try to be in contact with me. Kinda scary to know that if I wanted to disappear all I would have to do is stop talking to people. Maybe its a sign that I should try it and see what happens. No one would look for me, no one would care. |
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| HELLS YEA!!!! |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|11:04 pm] |
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| | Erotomania - Dream Theater | ] |
So, lots has happened lately. Last Friday was my first real gig. I'm in a melodic death metal band and we played at the Central Bar and Grill. All I can say is we kicked ass. It was this small mexican bar in South Yonkers and we blew te roof off. We even kick the others bands ass, they where the ones who got us the gig thinking that in 2 1/2 months we couldn't be that good. And if you know me, I'm not one to toot my own horn or be full of myself, I'm usually the opposite way. It was so much fun and such a thrill to hear people cheering for us. That was the tightest we ever played and it all just fit together.
Also, today I got my new Pontiac Grand AM, such a kick ass car. I'm gunna love driving that, V6 engine and all... o yea. It looks hot too. Black with the chrome wheels. HOT SHIT!!!
Finally, school is back up. Its going good. I have 2 projects to work on this semester, a roulette wheel and a digital amplifier. That with 3 classes, Jazz band, and the radio station should be alot. Not sure I'm gunna have much time, guess I wont get more of that life I was working on. I just hope I can manage all that with the band good. I definatly don't want to have to give up any of it. Wish me luck. |
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| A moment of siolence please... |
[Aug. 25th, 2004|08:45 pm] |
It is with the deepest sorrow that I must announce the death of the '91 Pontiac Grand Am, lovingly known as Goofy, on August 24 at 2:40 am... please pause and observe a moment of silence.
So yea Monday night after practice James said he wanted to go to the Juice Bar. We made calls to see if anyone wanted to come with us, thankfully Steph said she would. So we headed over to Stilettos but when we go halfway over the bridge the oil gage said it was low and it started making a clanking noise. We stoped at a gas station got some oil, but the oil wasn't low. So since we were two min. away from the club we went... good times there. Three lap dance... i should have saved that money though. After we where done there the car started and sounded better then when we got there. Then it got worse. When we got to the ramp onto the saw mill from 287 the car stalled. It wouldn;t start back up at first but i got it going again and we decided that we would try to make it back home, or at leaste to Yonkers. They where doing construction on the saw mill wich made us stand there for like 15 mins. During that I had to put the car in nautral and rev the engin just to keep it from stalling. We made it all the way to executive... at the light Steph said she saw smoke. Further up the road, about 2 mins later, my car broke down all together. Turns out the engin blew and since that would have taken $2000 to replace or rebuild it there was no point. So my car is in a junk yard now. My first car... I took my road test in it, drove to both Boston and Montauk and back on one day (seperate days), went to Five towns college just about every weekend James was there, so many night sitting in her smoking up, so many conversations between best friends in that front seat.... O man so much happened in that car. I will miss her, the best damn car. |
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| Now I'm a legal Drunk |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|01:03 pm] |
Yes ladies and gentlemen, I have turned 21. And to celebrate i had 21 drinks. I had 14 at Gryphans in White Plain, my sister too me at 12 midnight. Those drinks consisted of beer a shot of jack, a jegger bomb, a car bomb, and a three-wise-men. Then during the day I had 2 Tom Collins a beer with dinner, and then a 40 and a 20 of Bud when i chilled at the marina. So yea, i was feeling pretty good.
Other news, this is my last week of work. I have my presentation pretty much ready but ill go over it again and again untill thursday. I can't get the code to fully compile, I don't think I will be able to either. That sucks, it would have been better if the project actually worked. O well. |
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| Damn, it's summer time |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|09:38 pm] |
So shit has happened lately. Monday and tuesday i felt kinda bad and kept falling asleep at work. I thought i was just catching a cold after getting caught in the downpours the past friday. (I walked from the subway to my car only to find the parking lot closed and no one down on the enginnering campus. Then i walked to main campus, through waldo lot wich was a river at the time, to the gaurds booth. Then after telling him the lot was close while i was already drenched. Then i had to walk all the way back down, through the river lot, to my car). Then wendsday i woke up and felt real bad. I almost didn;t go to work, but then realizing I had a meeting forced myself to. Unfortunatly, I didn't have a meeting, I guess I forgot my advissors where out this week. So at when I felt like real shit I decided to go and when I got home went to the doctor. I had a temp. of 103 and Strp Throught. I felt like shit for thurs. and fri. and thanksfuly am feeling better now. But how did I get this during the summer, damn.
In other sad news, the mother my aunt and uncle where hoping to adopt from did have the baby. However today, when they thought they would be able to pick up the baby from the hospital, the mother decided to keep the baby. I feel bad for them, but there is a baby out there for them, hopefullly they'll get it soon, they deserve it. |
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| Good things |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|11:15 pm] |
I went to Boston last weekend. It was fun, I got to hang out wiht Jimmy, drank, chilled, played guitar. We didn;t really leave his apartment that much... he said I getting to see what he does all the time. It was really good to see him though.
Furby is coming home tomorrow night. WOO HOO!!!! Hopefully she'll hang out with me. That will help this blah feeling... either that or the massive amounts of weed we're gunna smoke together surely will...lol.
Other good news.... My sister is engaged now... her bf of a long time proposed and they are planning the wedding for october.
Also, My uncle and Aunt who have been trying to adopt a baby for like a year seem to be getting one. The 15 year old partens can't handle having a baby... 15?!?!?! my god... but I should have a new cousin by the end of July. |
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